Tuesday, May 31, 2011

So sleepy.....

I just got done working four 12 hour shifts in a row yesterday and while John was getting ready for work this evening I totally crashed on the couch. He happened to get a picture of it! So either this is a symptom or Im just still exhausted from working so much.

FYI: Emma the dog in the picture never lays like this with me.. She normally will lay on the corners of the couch.

-MissyCrissy :)

Monday, May 30, 2011

IM KTFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!

For the most part all of the ladies that follow me know Im KU now!!! But soon other people will begin following this blog as well including some family members!!! So I tested yesterday morning and John wasnt at home he was at work. Boo to that... At first I I texted him and told him it was a BFN with a sad face. Then a quick second later I sent him another text saying I see a line. But ever so faint.... I sent him the picture and he said I think I see it!!! We got kind of happy!!!

He was off last night and I held my pee from 4pm til 9pm not all on purpose. We ended up going to eat with a friend/coworker and her husband and there baby. So Im sitting there while we are eating dying because I need to pee so bad. I could not get home fast enough. I got home and if you remember I had John hide the test from me because they are addicting. He slowly hands one to me and I rip it out of his hand or I was going to pee all over the bathroom floor. The line is darker!!!! So I decide I will take another IC in the am and if the line is even darker I will use a digital test!

I had to work yet again so I was up by 5 am and did it!! I saw the line pretty fast on the IC! So I dipped the digital and there it was. The most beauitful word on the planet!!!!! Im having so many emotions right now its crazy!! Im happy, overjoyed, worried, anxious, stoked, and most of all relieved!!! This cycle was by far the best cycle I have had since TTC!!!!!

There are so many ladies on the TTGP/TTTC board that I want to thank but man there are so many. So many girls really reached out to me and appreciate them so much. Could have not made it thru all of this without you guys! I will greatly miss those ladies and hope that they get there BFPs very soon.

Love to all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Friday, May 27, 2011

Thank you body!!

Im so proud of my body this go around and feel very hopeful for this cycle. I ovulated on my own and my progesterone level was 15.18 so I dont have to do those disgusting prometerium pills. Its about time my body got the memo to cooperate!!! We had the best timing we have ever had and things just feel different.

My husband is so goofy yesterday he said you have a glow about you and something is different. I said its because I laid out and got a tan. He said no its because your pregnant. Men are crazy I tell you and say the funniest things. I truly hope this is it and I can make him the happiest man on the planet. Im so ready to give that man a child!!!

I want to post real quick to those that had stuff suffered losses. My heart truly and I mean truly aches for those that have to endure the pain of that loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hope everyone has a wonderful and relaxing weekend!

-MissyCrissy :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Man what a day...

This totally has nothing to do with TTC but about work. It has been a really bad day at work. Trying to be an avocate for a patient at times can bring you more stress than its worth. Not sure Im allowed to go in huge detail about what happened but I got my but chewed out by my manager for doing the right thing but the wrong thing...

Sometimes being smarter and having better critical thinking skills than a doctor does not pay off in the end. Thank goodness at the end of the day the manager apologized. He embarrassed the crap out of me.

-MissyCrissy :)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

My latest letters.....

Just got done with my letters a friend wanted me to do for her sister in law! The boys name is Jaxen and they were doing a baseball theme. She told me to include red and blue. The parents will probably not have a baby room as they live with her parents. So it was easier to come up with stuff!!

I do have to say doing girls letters is easier because you can do more crafty and more adorable things. I cant put cute ribbon on there and so forth... But overall Im pretty happy with these letters!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Friday, May 20, 2011

I already ovulated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im kind of freaking out alittle because Im so dang happy that I dont have to give myself the shot this month. Went in for my third follie check and yesterday the follie was measuring 17.5mm so they wanted me to come back. I told the u/s tech that I ran 9 miles yesterday and she got alittle upset with me and told me to not be running that much. It drops your estrogen level. So she is in there looking and I notice my lining is down 2mm then she goes over to my left ovary and the follie is gone!!! She said guess what you Ovulated already. Im so so so so happy my body did it by itself!

The doctor was able to also do the post cotial test even though we had relations last night around 6. I got to see my mans swimmers swimming in my stuff. He said you are good to go and you dont have to move on to IUI!!! Oh thank you lucky socks and my body for cooperating this go around.

He did say that if this cycle does not pan out he is upping my dose of clomid to 100mg. Not sure why because Im a goofball and totally forgot to ask. I was just so happy thats all I could think about!!! So here is the start of the 2ww!! Im on my knees begging that this is it!! But if not oh well! Im just thrilled I dont have to get poked with a needle!

-MissyCrissy :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Sock Exchange....

For the most part all of the ladies that follow me on my blog are from the bump! So 3T did a sock exchange and I have to say it really helped lift my spirits. One of the ladies organized it and got everyone to PM her there address and she randomly picked who sends who socks. It was all a surprise!!

Lovin Life and I were late to the party and didnt get in on the first exchange so we messaged each other and sent socks to each other. Here are my so very cute socks:

PS:The wizard card and the drawing on the receipt was not done by my sock sista. Im guessing the company placed it. So Im officially calling the wizard my mascot!!! Come on wizard bring me luck! Turn my body into a baby making fool!

I got on board with the 2nd sock exchange and set out some cute socks to another bumpie! Cant wait for her to get them!!! I truly feel this was a wonderful idea and cant wait for the next exchange!!!

Monday, May 16, 2011


Went in for my CD 12 U/S to see if Im responding to my second round of 50mg of clomid and I had a dominant 13mm follicle on my left. I really thought it would be my right side this time but my body like to trick me. Im waiting for the call back but the U/S tech said I probably will come back on friday and hopefully trigger that night. I hope she is right! Grow little follie grow!!!! Got the call back and I will be going back on Thursday!

On a side note I have to get this off my chest because that is what blogs are for! So about 6 months ago a girl that is a nurse at our hospital came up to my husband and said you guys will find out your pregnant around the holidays. She said she just had this weird feeling that was it. So I kind of held on to that alittle bit for a while during the holidays and of course she was wrong. So I was talking to her today and we talked about the Cheri 22 psychic and I told her what she said. I told her she said we could either conceive/find out/or give birth in Jan. I said well that has long past. She said well 6 months is right around the corner I bet it happens then. I said oh no I dont want to wait another 6 months. That would be awful. In the back of my mind Im thinking well looks like it will be a IUI or IVF baby because by then I will be on to some other protocol as far as clomid and so forth goes.

After her telling me that gave me a huge pit in my stomach thinking its going to be like that. Why do we hold on to everything people say sometimes. That little bit of hope just gets you. So Im doing everything I can to not think about the conversation anymore and thats why Im putting down on my blog....

Thank you blog for giving me peace!!!!!!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

One of my favorite hobbies....

I have a few hobbies but here lately Ive had the crafty bug. So I started making letters for my friends that were pregnant for there baby rooms. Here is one of my latest projects:

Im so excited because there are alot of pregnant girls up at work and this really keeps my mind off things. I pretty much get a picture of the baby bedding and the color they paint on the wall and go to town. So for this room the girl gave me two pictures and my imagination went crazy as you can see!!!

I have a few more that I have to do so once Im done with them I will post them. Im not 100% done with the top picture still have to put white ribbon on them so they can be hung on the wall!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Friday, May 13, 2011

Way to much time on my hands.....

So DH works nights at the same hospital and department as I do and I work days. There are times where we give each other report of the patients I had for the day. I try to stay all busy and no play and he likes to give me the sexy eyes or try to kiss me. I get so embarrassed because I want to be professional.

We work 12 hours shifts and most of the time they are in a row. So John worked thurs, fri, and sat this week. I start to get pretty lonely after the 2nd night... I start to feel like Im not married and I just talk to this hot guy on the phone for 30 mins at night at the max.

I truly cant wait for the day he gets to work days with me. Our department has a waiting list to go on days and the guy at the top has been on there for 4 years. So sad.... With that wait our family will hopefully be complete by the time he gets to days!

We look forward to the day we get to retire and get to spend ever day with each other. Truly believe that missing your man makes the heart grow fonder. We look forward to this so much!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Thursday, May 12, 2011

My heart has been melted....

A dear friend of mine that tried to get pregnant for 4 years finally got pregnant and carried all the way up to 36 weeks and lost her baby to stillbirth back in October. A few months ago I found out she was pregnant again. I was and I am so over the moon happy for her!! So ready for her to have that take home baby she has always dreamed of...

So today Im at work and I get this message from her: "Wanted to say Im thinking about you! Ive been there and know how frustrating it is. Hang in there! You WILL get your little miracle!!"

I almost started crying and then realized Im at work. I replied telling her how much I appreciated those words and her thoughts. Sweet messages like that to someone going thru this makes a world of difference!!! I will forever cherish that comment and cant wait to see her again to give her hugs!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Monday, May 9, 2011

3 pills in...

Well Im 3 pills in on my 2nd cycle of clomid and the hot flashes have already started... They almost give me panic attacks when they start coming on. Definately when Im asleep and I cant get uncovered fast enough.

 I feel like a lady going thru menopause. To all of you women that have gone thru menopause Im so sorry. My mother told me yesterday you havent had a hot flash til you have gone thru a hysterectomy or hot flash yesterday. I was like Im pretty sure these hot flashes feel like yours. But she didnt agree.. Oh well it was Mothers Day.

So I've decided to really work on not letting PCOS/low progesterone or just not being pregnant yet let me down anymore. The last few months it has taken a toll on me. Ive felt that I did this to myself and I was helpless. Well not anymore.. Thanks to talking to the nurse on the phone about all of this she said you didnt do this to yourself. It's either something genetic or it just happened. I asked if there was anything I could do to fix it and she said no. I already excercise enough and eat good so thats about all I can do to keep it under control. So Im sticking to my positive attitude!!

My husband and I decided that Im hiding my thermometer and hpt's this cycle and we are going to get back to the way it use to be and try not to stress during the fertile time... So lets hope that this helps keep me off the edge.

Im so ready to see more of the regs on the bump get BFP's!!! Come on girls lets get off that dang TTGP/TTTC board already!!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Sunday, May 8, 2011

A TO Z....

Learning alittle about me thru the alphabet!!!

A. Age: 29

B. Bed size: Queen but would love for a King

C. Chore you dislike: Its a tie between cleaning the toliets or the dishes

D. Dogs: Dirk 6 yr old Cocker spaniel, Emma 8 yr old Boxer, & Aubrey 11 yr old Lab

E. Essential start to your day: Coffee or peanut butter/banana

F. Favorite color:  Teal or Pink

G. Gold or Silver: Silver

H. Height: 5'-4"

I. Instruments you play(ed): Does the recorder you learned how to play in 4th grade count...

J. Jelly bean flavour: not really a jelly bean fan but if I had to choose watermelon or strawberry

K. Kids: One day

L. Lucky Number(s): 3 is my favorite number!!!!!!!!!

M. Month that is your fav: I would say either April or July!!! Spring and Summer!

N. Nicknames: Cris, Missy, Kissy, Crissy

O. Overnight hospital stays: Cant say that I have unless you count being born!

P. Pet peeves:  Going to Chickfila and they saying your pleasure. I feel like it is a forced your welcome. Just say your welcome!

Q. Quote from a movie: "Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what your gonna get." Forrest Gump!!!

R. Righty or Lefty: Righty.

S. Siblings: One real brother, 2 step sisters, 2 step brothers, and 4 half sisters.

T. Time You Wake Up: 4:50 am on days I work... 8:30 am on my days off!

U. Underwear: I wear them.

V. Vegetables you don't like?: mushrooms, capers, brussel sprouts

W. What makes you run late? : If I run late its either because of DH or my hair has taken to long to blow dry. The love of having super thick hair!

X. X-rays you've had? : mouth, knee, and ankles

Y. Yummy food you make? : I can make some awesome homeade chocolate chip cookies or Blueberry Crumb Cake!!

Z. Zoo animal favorites? : elephants, monkeys, and giraffes

-MissyCrissy :)

Thursday, May 5, 2011

CD 1 and positive as ever!!!

Its crazy that a person would be so excited to see her period but man that would be me. The last couple of days Ive been doing alot of soul searching and doing what I can to get myself thru all of this. I started posting the "Quote of the Day" on 3T. I have to tell you that quotes really are inspirational. You read those quotes and it makes you fist pump for some reason!!

So today I wanted to share a great quote I found last night while searching for the one I would post on 3T today:

-MissyCrissy :)

Monday, May 2, 2011

The call I hate...

Got the call from the RE that the blood pregnancy test was negative. Im stopping the progesterone so I can start. Suppose to call them once I get CD 1 to start the whole process over again. Clomid/trigger shot again! Please oh please let this be it... Not sure I can keep riding on this emotional roller coaster.

-MissyCrissy :)

Sunday, May 1, 2011


Im doing everything I can to keep myself together this morning. Im so angry at myself for getting myself excited about those faint positives. This next cycle I will test out the hcg from day one. This cycle has pulled on every heart string I have. I truly thought and had a deep down feeling this was it. And here I am typing this...

I was told Friday by one of my managers at work that I have changed from a bubbly go with the flow type a person to a snippy fast to react person. If she truly knew what it was like to live in my shoes for a day I think she would understand. But after that comment it made me realize that this process has changed me into someone that I dont like. So Im going to start working on this and get back to the Crissy that everyone IRL knows and loves. I just think month after month cycle after cycle I just start to get angrier not sad anymore.

I go to the RE tommorrow at 10 am and get that plan for next cycle. This period is going to be awful and so not looking forward to this with arriving. But what can you do....

I want to thank each of you for posting on my blog and giving me the support that a girl needs. You guys rock!! <3 you guys!

-MissyCrissy :)