April 1st could not get here fast enough....

This is my worst enemy right now... Just so you know!! Oh and to make matters worse I was a goofball and started taking Vitex a few days ago and thats a no no thanks to Dr. Google. So as of today I will stop that. You cant take it with Clomid either so I guess I will be pushing Vitex to the back of my medicine cabinet.

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 29 — A person I love

The person I love is my husband John. He is such an amazing man. He totally puts my feelings into consideration. He always makes sure he does something sweet for me to feel loved by him. To leaving me sweet notes at work to putting cards under my pillow. The guy even will spray his cologne on his pillow for me when he has to work nights. Im a very lucky lady. He is truly my SOULMATE!!

I fall in love with him more and more everyday. In two weeks we celebrate our 1 year anniversary and man it has gone by so fast. Last weekend we celebrated being together for two years. We still feel like we are dating. Always learning about each other and having fun!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Update on me....

Just got back from my trip to California and going to the Price is Right!! It was so fun but dont think I will be going back there. I went to the RE yesterday to make sure I actually ovulated and if not to start Provera or Prometerium.

They did an ultrasound and it really didnt show much other than the sonographer saying yes you definately have PCOS. Ok thanks... She said there was a possibilty that I did O because of my lining. She showed the films to the doctor and he told me to take Prometerium for 10 days vaginally. Yuck.. Its like taking stuff for a yeast infection. They drew blood to check my progesterone and a blood pregnancy test. Of course the pregnancy test came back negative and my progesterone was 3.5. At 6 dpo it should be around 15. Never got a clear answer on if I really ovulated. Guess I will never know.

I stopped temping from this point forward because the Prometerium just messes with your temps and Im just going to let the doctor do the monitoring. I left the office yesterday confused, frustrated, sad, and happy all at the same time. All of these emotions feels like a huge roller coaster. Im thankful for my rock John but he can only help me so much you know. So I reached out to some dear friends that I have grown such a great relationship with from the Bump! I heart you guys and so appreciate your support and shoulders thru all of this!!

So plan of action is start my period in hopefully 12 days or so. Clomid cd3-7 with b/w/ultrasound on cd 3, HSG cd7-10, and another ultrasound at cd 12-13 to check for follies. Oh please Oh please let this work!

-MissyCrissy :)

Update on SA....

Woooohoooo John's SA results were normal!!! Im the broke one. So happy its just me and not both of us!! Now I just need to ovulate or get provera to get this show on the road!!

-MissyCrissy :)

SA= Sperm Analysis

Poor John had to go do a SA this morning. I felt bad for him.. I had heard thru a friend that her husband was so embarassed when he got his done. The crazy thing is we both work at the same hospital and the SA was done here at the hospital. Im happy I dont have to do that in a cup seriously. I will take shots and meds before I would ever done what he had to do today.

Someone today said well this is your way of getting him back for not moving that medicine ball from under your feet when you hurt your ankles. Well I guess so but this was not my idea so dont think this counts.. So I hope it comes back normal and we have no issues on his side. Fingers crossed....

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 28 — A place I love

This is White Rock Lake. John and I go here alot to run, ride bikes, and watch the sunsets. This place is amazing. We say all the time we are going to go one Thursday and rent a canoe and canoe across the lake. Guess we will see when that happens. Anyway this lake has helped me train for alot of my runs.

They have a running trail that goes all the way around the lake pretty much 10 miles around. I wished more lakes were like this one!! My first half marathon was around this lake and I will never forget it! This lake makes it easy so you dont have to bring all your accessories to run. Tons of water fountains and you know the exact distance!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 27 — A child I love

Ryan is a child I love. He is the sweetest child I have ever met. He has a caring heart and loves his parents. He melts my heart when he tells me he loves me. We have a bond as aunt and nephew that is like no other. I wished I saw him more and that probably has alot to do with me. But on the other hand he is a good kid and wished he wouldnt grow up. He has gone thru some stuff at his early age that he shouldnt have and I feel his pain. I love you Ryan Scott!!! I thank the good lord everyday for my brother having him!!!

Day 26 — A funny (true) story

This is perfect timing. I have a pretty funny story that happened on our camping trip this past weekend. We drove down to Glen Rose, Texas to John's parents land. John was doing a 10 mile trail run in Waco. I was suppose to do it too but you know the ankles....

Well after the race on Saturday we got back to the land and decided to walk aroud the land. Alittle back story their neighbors have a deer that is a pet. They feed him gum, pop tarts, or you name it. His name is Dave and wears a bandana thing around his neck so no one shots him. From what John has said about this deer he is a really good pet. Well.....

We started walking back to the camper and we hear something coming towards us and at first John thought it was a mountain lion. But instead it was Dave and he was happy to see us. We said our hellos to him and decided to keep walking back to the land which was a good 1/2 mile away.

He was walking behind us an he licks my leg... Then he walks behind a bush and charges John like he wants to fight him. Since he is a pet he knows what no means. So John said no and he started walking again. Im not kidding when I say I was slightly scared, but it was kind of funny too... Dave did this all the way to the camper. He would think John wasnt paying attention and would go after him. This dang deer was trying to fight over me.

We got back to the camper and Dave would not leave. We decided to leave earlier from our camping trip because of this dang horny pet deer. This is why wild animals dont make good pets. But on the way home all we could do was laugh about the incident!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 25: Favorite Photo

This photo was taken on our honeymoon. The guy standing behind us was the show host of the Newlywed Game on the cruise. He wanted 3 couples to come up and explain how we got engaged. So I had to tell a group of about 200 people how he proposed to me. Lets just say I stumbled on my words and was shaking. So then he calls John up there and makes him sing the song we danced to on our wedding night and also he had to tell me how much he loved me. He also had to re propose.. It was hilarious!!!! I was laughing so hard I could not stop.

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 24: A travel story

John and I are road trippers. We love getting in the car and just going. Its fun you should try it. So one fall day John and I were training for a marathon and decided we would drive down to glen rose texas to his parents land. I was like ok but dont we need to go home first and let the dogs out and change. He said no lets just go. So it took us 2 hours to get there and we had the best conversation ever.

We get to the land and pull up to the camper and went in and it smelled funny. We found a dead mouse on the counter top. So gross... He wanted to get on this four wheel drive vehicle so we could go around the land. We end up at this pond and there was something dead hanging on a tree... We still to this day dont know what that was hanging there. Then he took me to this cliff over looking the horizon.

This cliff was beautiful. There were tons of rocks and the sky was just beautiful. We sat on this huge rock next to each other. We again were talking about the two of us together and how perfect it was. Then he kissed me and asked me to marry him. Out of no where no even planned it just came out. I sad are you serious. He shook his head and I said yes!!! The best day of my life.

Then I noticed he was messing with something and he had made a ring out of grass and asked me if this would do for now... It was the most beauitful ring ever!!!

In the end that is the best travel story I will ever have!

-MissyCrissy3 :)

Back from the RE with good Plans!!!!!

Back from the RE with so many things going thru my head. Im nervous about the plan but know this is what needs to happen. Lots of information so I will post it here.

We went thru my history and my lab work. He was very concerned with my FSH level and was confused by the low dhea and low testosterone level. He asked if I have had any signs of menopause and I told him I get hot flashes but I thought they were just hormonal and came on before my period. He at one point during the conversation stated there is a chance he might not be able to help us if this was premature ovarian failure. But he wanted to do a ultrasound right then to even see if this was the issue.

My blood work did not show PCOS. My insulin levels were good. So we go into the ultrasound room and I get a visit from the dildocam... Ha ha! He looks and says there is no way you are going in to menopause your ovaries are huge. You could donate eggs!! He counted 15 follicles on my right ovary and 13 on the other!  The lining of my uterus was good as well. He said you need to look up what PCOS is because that is what is wrong with you.

He stated this is what has caused my long cycles and facial hair. He thinks the testosterone/fsh/dhea were a fluke and are wrong. He will redraw those labs again on CD3. Im starting clomid and hcg trigger shots next cycle. John has to get a sperm analysis and I have to do a hsg. While on clomid he wants to also do a postcoiltal test.

Lots of stuff going on soon and so hope we are not out of town when this all happens. We are very relieved to have a diagnosis and are very hopeful for a sweet baby in our arms one day!!! Im so happy we went to this doctor. He is so amazing and fit with our personality so well.

-MissyCrissy3

A Poem....

Some Days




Some days are happy days

some days are sad.

Some days are easier

and some days are bad.

Some days make me smile

and some make me frown.

Some days let me laugh

some let me down.

Some days I cry

others I won't.

Some days I try to think positive

sometimes I don't.

Some days my heart hurts

for the thing that I yearn.


I know that someday

it will be my turn.


Poem written by:  Bluenoser4ever

Day 23: A video

Ive been really stuck on this day for a few days and have no clue what video to put. I would love to post something from my wedding but dont know how to do that. My father in law made this speech to us at our wedding that is by far the best speech ever. We both are respiratory therapist and so was his dad. So he made the speech so that it had to do with medical stuff. It was classic.

Maybe soon I can figure this one out...

-MissyCrissy :)

Roller Coaster Ride of Emotions Today.....

Today has been an emotional day. I was sitting on the couch around 10:30am and I look over at our oldest dog Aubrey and she looked up at me and was doing this weird shaking thing and her left eye was doing this rapid movement up down motion. She tried getting up and couldnt.

John had worked last night and had only been asleep for 2 hours and I had to go wake him up to help me figure out what was going on. He tried lifting her up and she couldnt stand up. He tried rolling her over to the other side than she was laying and that made her uncomfortable. The eye thing just kept going and she was leaning to the right. I called the vet that we are not to keen with but we didnt have a choice.

So we get her in the car and we drive to the vet. We get there and the receptionist was not very nice and asked what my name was and then turned to her coworker and never talked to me again. After a few minutes they took us back to a room. It took them a good 30 minutes before someone came in to talk to us. John had to carry her back to back to the scale to weigh her. There were at least 6 people in the back just standing around doing nothing.

Why make us wait 30-40 minutes to just see a vet tech if there are 6 people in the back not doing a dang thing. I have to say they were the most uncompassionate people I have ever met. Then the actual vet comes in and doesnt introduce herself or anything and has a smokers/bronchitis cough.

She listens to Aubrey and looks at her eyes and says she has had a mini stroke. We were so upset but kind of figured it since we work in a hospital we kind of know signs of strokes. We seriously thought we were going to have to make the biggest decision of our relationship to end her life today. But as we were sitting there Aubrey slowly started getting better. She started walking alittle bit and the rapid eye movement subsided. They gave us predisone and told us to keep her in a confined space for a few days.

So we took her home and she slept with John for a few hours in our room. I go to wake John up and she is standing at the door acting like nothing happened. I was so surprised to see her back to herself... So crazy. We will still keep a very close eye on her and hope that this does not happen again..

Sorry so long...

-MissyCrissy :)

2nd Acupuncture Appt

Well she made me cry. Thanks to my ankles and her thinking she could heal me but in return she just hurt me worse. She was squeezing the crap out of my ankles and my toes I wanted to kick her. But other than that she worked on my hormone issues.

She put chicken and egg enzymes in my hand to see if Im allergic and thank goodness Im not. Those two things I pretty much eat everyday. Couldnt live without it. I think she knew I was pretty upset with her. The last time I went she gave me this tea that was the most digusting thing Ive ever drank. She suggested I go get clear gelatin capsules and put it in there and swallow it. So that is on my to do list for tomorrow.

She also suggested to help with my hormones to eat walnuts. Well I do that already as well but will make sure I eat them everyday. She also said something about some bean but dont know what kind of beans she was talking about.

These people have alot of information and at times you think its almost voodoo. But maybe just maybe it works who knows. So I will make an appt for two weeks from today.

-MissyCrissy :)