O...M...G

Ok I took a test the day I got my 25 ICs in the mail from amazon Monday and the test was negative. The only thing is Im not sure I held my pee long enough. I took an IC yesterday morning and immediatley I saw no line so I threw it in the trash and didnt give it the full time to work. Went back and looked at it later on and there was a faint line. So of course I held my pee for a while and POAS again another faint line at the 5 minute mark.

This morning I decided to POAS again because as above there are 25 test staring at me.... So I jumped in the shower and the line was the same as yesterday. Im doing everything I can to not get to excited since I took the hcg trigger and Im not 100% sure if this dang med is out of my system yet.

Im going to test again Saturday and see what it says......

-MissyCrissy :)

So upset....

This is going to be a vent. So sorry if this sounds whiney or annoying. But Im so tired of my body. I just dont get it. Why do alot of women end up pregnant without having to take anything and then there are women that have to jump thru ever single hoop possible to final get a baby?

I go this morning to get my 7 dpo progesterone checked and got the call that of course it was low. It was only one point away from being normal. For a medicated cycle they like 15 mine was 14. So I had to start prometerium again today. I have to say my bubble really got popped today. I had this feeling deep down that this was it for us. But not anymore. I started spotting yesterday and wasnt sure what it could be. Well Im going to take a guess that it was the low progesterone.

Im truly thankful for the medication but absolutely hate taking it. It makes me feel so unsexy and makes me not want to make love to my husband. Wearing a panty liner is not so fun either.

My heart goes out to all those ladies that have to go thru alot more than I do. You truly are brave and strong women. I havent been trying as long as them but I can sympathize with those ladies with wanting something so bad and your body not working. I yearn to hold my own child and give it unconditional love. Its a huge void in my life and Im so ready for our turn. I catch my husband looking at kids in restuarants and I can see in his eyes that he wants and feels the same way. 

If I had super powers I would so give every single women that was battling with infertilty the baby of there dreams.......

-MissyCrissy :)

1 Year Anniversary Video Shoot ....

http://animoto.com/play/f1DN1mneFgrzZ3HTGXwO5g

Click on the Link!!! She did an amazing job! This girl that did this is just starting out in photography and we were her 2nd client! We had a blast!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

B.L.O.A.T.....

Holy Moly the bloat im dealing with right now is the worst bloat Ive ever had in a 2ww... Wondering if this is a side effect from the HCG trigger shot. Thanks to these meds the last few weeks I have put on some not so happy about it lbs. Ive been working out like crazy trying to prepare for this half marathon but the dang scale isnt going anywhere. Is this what I have to look forward too if this cycle doesnt pan out. Bloat and lbs.... Not cool!

But hey end the end it will all be worth it!! So looking forward to going to the doc Monday! Please progesterone be normal!!

Happy Easter to all!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

And why did I not temp this cycle?

I keep asking myself this question everyday. The thought of not knowing my temps is driving me bonkers definately during the infamous 2ww. I wished I could go to sleep and wake up next Friday or Saturday and know if Im KU or not.

Im so happy for the latest band of BFP's. Some great girls are going to be awesome December mommies!! Big huge congrats to one of my BFPB's mrsJT09/ Betty!!! Im so overly happy for this sweet lady! We talk almost every single day and have developed a great friendship! Not sure what I would do without her. So happy for her to move on to first tri and Dec Boards! Now I have a cheerleader cheering me on all the way!!! Hoping that some how some way I can go see her and meet her! Im a happy girl!!

Another person I have to give a huge thanks to is tmsetzer83/Tiff! We first started talking because we both were dealing with long cycles and it was dang frustrating. Someone to talk to about stuff and totally understand is awesome. There was a possibility we were going to start clomid around the same time so it was perfect. Now we talk almost everyday by text! She is one amazing person and so happy to have her in my life. I can text her my worries, side effects, etc and she is there for me!!!

Last but not least smltowngirl!! I love this girl! I seriously think she is me but with blonde hair! She is wicked awesome and a great friend! I hope she gets KU on her next IVF cycle! Im her cheerleader all the way!

So my whole point in explaining these three wonderful ladies is with out these girls I think I would not have any hair on my head left after a 2ww without them. Love you guys! <3

-MissyCrissy :)

Something I really want!!

I was lurking on the Health & Excercise board on the bump and someone was talking about two video workouts I want....

Im asking for the Turbo Fire for my bday in July. The Chalean Extreme I going to buy on ebay very soon!!! Its so easy to just pop in a video than drive to the gym. Plus hate working out with a bunch of sweaty smelly men.....

-MissyCrissy :)

Not to much to update on....

Well the trigger shot wasnt as bad as I thought it was going to be. John gave it to me! But note to self to never let him do it again and tell him we have to have sex at a certain time. Thats all Im going to say about that. Im not hopeful for this cycle because of the issues we had but hopefully it will work itself out.

I go back to the RE April 25th to check my progesterone level and I guess get a ultrasound to see if I indeed ovulated! Truly happy to have ovulated this early. Since July thats 9 months I think I have never ovulated this early. So thank you meds for doing the job!!

Hoping this 2ww is not brutal and it goes by super fast!! Im training for a half marathon so that should keep me pretty busy we log miles the next two weeks!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Look what is for dinner tonight....

John is home tonight and he is smoking a pork butt!! If you havent had a pork butt it is so good. Its kind of like brisket but pork. Well we got this recipe from the blog http://www.thepioneerwoman.com/ and had to try it. Something with Dr. Pepper in it you know it has to be good!! The recipe is called Spicy Dr. Pepper Shreddred Pork. Instead of doing tacos with it he is making potato salad that we figured out the recipe from Red Hot & Blue!! The best potato salad on this planet! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

 

-MissyCrissy :)

Pep talk with the ovaries...

I went in for my follie check this am and I have one follicle measuring 18mm on my left side. She said there might be another one on that side but didnt tell me the measurement of that one. She was really surprised to see me respond that well at cd 12. They like the follicle to be 20mm before you trigger. My lining was 8.7 and she said that was really good too....

So they are suppose to call me to either come back in tomorrow or Saturday. Go left ovary!! Will you please please do what you are suppose to so I can get this show on the road!! Really surprised it was my left ovary that worked. I always feel ovulation on my right side but never my left.

Its crazy sitting in that room by yourself waiting for the ultrasound tech to come on. Your mind is running thinking about everything that could go wrong. Im sitting there half naked begging my ovaries and the lining of my uterus to be up to par! So thank you so much body for being there for me when I needed you!!! Because you know you have been slacking the last 8 months!!

Ps. Just got a called from the RE Im going back tmrw to check follie size! Oh man Im nervous!

-MissyCrissy )

Wooohooo.....

Today I did my HSG test and the Doctor that performed the test said everything was clear. Plus I called the RE and got my cd 3 b/w and that was normal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So OB/GYN I just want to thank you for all the stress you put me thru the past few months having me think that I was possibly going into early menopause.

On a not TTC note Im totally back to running!! It feels so good to be able to run and not hurt the next day! This past week even out of town I ran a total of 13 miles this week! I have 3 weeks til my 3rd half marathon and boy do I hope I do ok!

We enjoyed North Carolina and was so sad I didnt get to meet Sulfa and Jesswheels. Spent some great quality time with my SIL! Wished she didnt live so far away and hope soon she will station at Fort Hood a few hours away from us! I will post pictures of our trip soon!

Hope everyone is doing well!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Stressed alittle......

Hope everyone is having a great week! Well I filled my prescriptions yesterday for the clomid and doxycyline(for the hsg). The clomid was covered by my insurance and was only $19!!! But I got a call from my insurance and the Ovidrel trigger shot was not covered. They have to overnight the meds to me and it will cost $90.

Im kind of freaking out about money stuff right now because we have to pay $1475.00 in taxes on the 18th. Now wishing I would have paid half now and half later but what can you do. All this traveling that we are doing has drained our acct alittle bit. Every single time I go to my RE's office I have to pay a $50 copay.

So my plan is after we get back from North Carolina Im going to work like a freak train. Picking up extra here and there. I need to have a garage sale but dont have a clue when I have time for that. Really wished I wasnt dealing with all this stress right now.. But I guess this is life.

Thanks for listening!! So happy to be able to blog and get this stuff off my chest!

-MissyCrissy :)

We have Appointments and Plans!!!!

Ok B/W and ultrasound is tomorrow at 10am. Getting prescription for clomid but not sure the dose yet. Made my appt for the HSG for April 12th at 3 pm!! John and I are getting our pictures done in the morning time on that day for our first anniversary so it will be a very busy day.

I have so many emotions going into all of this but mostly excited!! Trying to not get my hopes up for this first round of Clomid but you know that is really hard to do. Just going to try to keep myself busy which is the case until then.

We leave Thursday the 7th for North Carolina to see John's sister. We are so excited to see her and to spend our First Anniversay April 10th out of town and run a 5k with her!! Then I hope at some point while Im there I get to meet the famous Sulfababy and Jesselayne!

So much to look forward too..........

-MissyCrissy :)

The need to RUN

John signed us up for a 1/2 marathon In May!!!! Im so stoked and ready to get back to running like I use too! This go around Im only going to run 3 days instead of 5 and ride my back or do workout videos for the other two days. Since we are doing treatment stuff with the RE I dont want to go overboard.

The last race I did was this past Sept a Full Marathon in Montana. So Im so ready to hit the pavement and get the runners high!!! We will be running around one of my favorite places White Rock Lake!! After the race we will be driving down to Austin to meet some girls from The Bump. Very excited about that!!!

So here is to training and enjoying nature!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Never thought I would be so happy....

AF Is Here... Thank you Prometrium Thank you!!! Now let the fun begin!!

Happy Sunday to all!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Last of Prometrium.... and a Vent!

Last night was my last pill and Im oh so happy... Now I just have my fingers crossed that I start before I go out of town on Thursday! I need to get b/w and a ultrasound on CD 3! Then the fun of Clomid.

I also wanted to note that I heart my BFPB's. When Im down they pick me up. They know what Im going thru and understand. They know exactly what to say to make me smile! Have no clue how I got so lucky to run into these girls!!!

I miss posting on the bump. I havent had hardly anytime to do much other than work. I moved over to 3T and the ladies there are so wonderful. I miss TTGP board though so I decided Im going to still post there to but not as much as I was....

Im so mad right now because I did this really hard course at work for my job and bombed the test. I have the worst test anxiety ever I swear. I knew a bit of the information and got a dang 58 on it. Thank goodness some of the other Respiratory Therapist that were there with me didnt pass either so we can drown in our sorrows together. It was the hardest test I think Ive ever taken. It was just way to much info for two days. Ok vent over.

Man I feel better!!!

-MissyCrissy :)