A dear friend of mine that tried to get pregnant for 4 years finally got pregnant and carried all the way up to 36 weeks and lost her baby to stillbirth back in October. A few months ago I found out she was pregnant again. I was and I am so over the moon happy for her!! So ready for her to have that take home baby she has always dreamed of...
So today Im at work and I get this message from her: "Wanted to say Im thinking about you! Ive been there and know how frustrating it is. Hang in there! You WILL get your little miracle!!"
I almost started crying and then realized Im at work. I replied telling her how much I appreciated those words and her thoughts. Sweet messages like that to someone going thru this makes a world of difference!!! I will forever cherish that comment and cant wait to see her again to give her hugs!!
-MissyCrissy :)
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
3 pills in...
Well Im 3 pills in on my 2nd cycle of clomid and the hot flashes have already started... They almost give me panic attacks when they start coming on. Definately when Im asleep and I cant get uncovered fast enough.
I feel like a lady going thru menopause. To all of you women that have gone thru menopause Im so sorry. My mother told me yesterday you havent had a hot flash til you have gone thru a hysterectomy or hot flash yesterday. I was like Im pretty sure these hot flashes feel like yours. But she didnt agree.. Oh well it was Mothers Day.
So I've decided to really work on not letting PCOS/low progesterone or just not being pregnant yet let me down anymore. The last few months it has taken a toll on me. Ive felt that I did this to myself and I was helpless. Well not anymore.. Thanks to talking to the nurse on the phone about all of this she said you didnt do this to yourself. It's either something genetic or it just happened. I asked if there was anything I could do to fix it and she said no. I already excercise enough and eat good so thats about all I can do to keep it under control. So Im sticking to my positive attitude!!
My husband and I decided that Im hiding my thermometer and hpt's this cycle and we are going to get back to the way it use to be and try not to stress during the fertile time... So lets hope that this helps keep me off the edge.
Im so ready to see more of the regs on the bump get BFP's!!! Come on girls lets get off that dang TTGP/TTTC board already!!!!!
-MissyCrissy :)
I feel like a lady going thru menopause. To all of you women that have gone thru menopause Im so sorry. My mother told me yesterday you havent had a hot flash til you have gone thru a hysterectomy or hot flash yesterday. I was like Im pretty sure these hot flashes feel like yours. But she didnt agree.. Oh well it was Mothers Day.
So I've decided to really work on not letting PCOS/low progesterone or just not being pregnant yet let me down anymore. The last few months it has taken a toll on me. Ive felt that I did this to myself and I was helpless. Well not anymore.. Thanks to talking to the nurse on the phone about all of this she said you didnt do this to yourself. It's either something genetic or it just happened. I asked if there was anything I could do to fix it and she said no. I already excercise enough and eat good so thats about all I can do to keep it under control. So Im sticking to my positive attitude!!
My husband and I decided that Im hiding my thermometer and hpt's this cycle and we are going to get back to the way it use to be and try not to stress during the fertile time... So lets hope that this helps keep me off the edge.
Im so ready to see more of the regs on the bump get BFP's!!! Come on girls lets get off that dang TTGP/TTTC board already!!!!!
-MissyCrissy :)
Sunday, May 8, 2011
A TO Z....
Learning alittle about me thru the alphabet!!!
A. Age: 29
A. Age: 29
B. Bed size: Queen but would love for a King
C. Chore you dislike: Its a tie between cleaning the toliets or the dishes
D. Dogs: Dirk 6 yr old Cocker spaniel, Emma 8 yr old Boxer, & Aubrey 11 yr old Lab
E. Essential start to your day: Coffee or peanut butter/banana
F. Favorite color: Teal or Pink
G. Gold or Silver: Silver
H. Height: 5'-4"
I. Instruments you play(ed): Does the recorder you learned how to play in 4th grade count...
J. Jelly bean flavour: not really a jelly bean fan but if I had to choose watermelon or strawberry
K. Kids: One day
L. Lucky Number(s): 3 is my favorite number!!!!!!!!!
M. Month that is your fav: I would say either April or July!!! Spring and Summer!
N. Nicknames: Cris, Missy, Kissy, Crissy
O. Overnight hospital stays: Cant say that I have unless you count being born!
P. Pet peeves: Going to Chickfila and they saying your pleasure. I feel like it is a forced your welcome. Just say your welcome!
Q. Quote from a movie: "Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what your gonna get." Forrest Gump!!!
R. Righty or Lefty: Righty.
S. Siblings: One real brother, 2 step sisters, 2 step brothers, and 4 half sisters.
T. Time You Wake Up: 4:50 am on days I work... 8:30 am on my days off!
U. Underwear: I wear them.
V. Vegetables you don't like?: mushrooms, capers, brussel sprouts
W. What makes you run late? : If I run late its either because of DH or my hair has taken to long to blow dry. The love of having super thick hair!
X. X-rays you've had? : mouth, knee, and ankles
Y. Yummy food you make? : I can make some awesome homeade chocolate chip cookies or Blueberry Crumb Cake!!
Z. Zoo animal favorites? : elephants, monkeys, and giraffes
-MissyCrissy :)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
CD 1 and positive as ever!!!
Its crazy that a person would be so excited to see her period but man that would be me. The last couple of days Ive been doing alot of soul searching and doing what I can to get myself thru all of this. I started posting the "Quote of the Day" on 3T. I have to tell you that quotes really are inspirational. You read those quotes and it makes you fist pump for some reason!!
So today I wanted to share a great quote I found last night while searching for the one I would post on 3T today:
-MissyCrissy :)
So today I wanted to share a great quote I found last night while searching for the one I would post on 3T today:
-MissyCrissy :)
Monday, May 2, 2011
The call I hate...
Got the call from the RE that the blood pregnancy test was negative. Im stopping the progesterone so I can start. Suppose to call them once I get CD 1 to start the whole process over again. Clomid/trigger shot again! Please oh please let this be it... Not sure I can keep riding on this emotional roller coaster.
-MissyCrissy :)
-MissyCrissy :)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
B.........F.........N
Im doing everything I can to keep myself together this morning. Im so angry at myself for getting myself excited about those faint positives. This next cycle I will test out the hcg from day one. This cycle has pulled on every heart string I have. I truly thought and had a deep down feeling this was it. And here I am typing this...
I was told Friday by one of my managers at work that I have changed from a bubbly go with the flow type a person to a snippy fast to react person. If she truly knew what it was like to live in my shoes for a day I think she would understand. But after that comment it made me realize that this process has changed me into someone that I dont like. So Im going to start working on this and get back to the Crissy that everyone IRL knows and loves. I just think month after month cycle after cycle I just start to get angrier not sad anymore.
I go to the RE tommorrow at 10 am and get that plan for next cycle. This period is going to be awful and so not looking forward to this with arriving. But what can you do....
I want to thank each of you for posting on my blog and giving me the support that a girl needs. You guys rock!! <3 you guys!
-MissyCrissy :)
I was told Friday by one of my managers at work that I have changed from a bubbly go with the flow type a person to a snippy fast to react person. If she truly knew what it was like to live in my shoes for a day I think she would understand. But after that comment it made me realize that this process has changed me into someone that I dont like. So Im going to start working on this and get back to the Crissy that everyone IRL knows and loves. I just think month after month cycle after cycle I just start to get angrier not sad anymore.
I go to the RE tommorrow at 10 am and get that plan for next cycle. This period is going to be awful and so not looking forward to this with arriving. But what can you do....
I want to thank each of you for posting on my blog and giving me the support that a girl needs. You guys rock!! <3 you guys!
-MissyCrissy :)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
O...M...G
Ok I took a test the day I got my 25 ICs in the mail from amazon Monday and the test was negative. The only thing is Im not sure I held my pee long enough. I took an IC yesterday morning and immediatley I saw no line so I threw it in the trash and didnt give it the full time to work. Went back and looked at it later on and there was a faint line. So of course I held my pee for a while and POAS again another faint line at the 5 minute mark.
This morning I decided to POAS again because as above there are 25 test staring at me.... So I jumped in the shower and the line was the same as yesterday. Im doing everything I can to not get to excited since I took the hcg trigger and Im not 100% sure if this dang med is out of my system yet.
Im going to test again Saturday and see what it says......
-MissyCrissy :)
This morning I decided to POAS again because as above there are 25 test staring at me.... So I jumped in the shower and the line was the same as yesterday. Im doing everything I can to not get to excited since I took the hcg trigger and Im not 100% sure if this dang med is out of my system yet.
Im going to test again Saturday and see what it says......
-MissyCrissy :)
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