Sunday, March 18, 2012

This and That...

This is pretty much a post that I will come back to when he is 5 and be like wow you did good kid! First and foremost Breastfeeding has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. Comparing that to running full marathons and having Miles. There are so many power struggles with it. One minute things are going well then the next minute I could throw in the towel at any minute. I had a friend come over and see Miles the other day and she has a 6 month old. Her daughter was acting hunger and whipped up a bottle just like that. I looked at her with envy because breastfeeding my child takes 45 minutes sometimes. Between feeding on one breast, burp him, change his diaper, offer the other breast, burp again, make sure he sits up for 10 minutes so we dont have reflux, and get him to sleep or play. By no means am I complaining that this natural thing that my body allows me to do. Just expressing what your mind goes thru the early moments of breastfeeding. You want to do what is best for your child and heck your budget in this dang economy. The other day someone said heck breast milk isn't just liquid gold so is formula.

 I think the hardest thing about breastfeeding truly is one not knowing how much your child is getting, when they are moving so much and wont get latched on, and that you are the only one that can feed him. Ive been pumping like a mad women so my hubby can give him a bottle a least once a day because when I go back to work at the end of April he will be able to feed him too. Miles will throw up a whole feeding and it will totally put me in a bad mood. All that hard work for a baby with a empty stomach. By far the most frustrating is when he is trying to latch on his arms are all over the place fighting with my boobs. I'm working on trying to make myself think its funny so I don't get so frustrated. Its starting to work. I truly believe he can tell when I get frustrated. So in the end breastfeeding is what you make of it. It truly is a process and do believe when people tell you if you can get thru the first few months of it you are in the clear. At times I have thought about just pumping and bottle feeding him. But Im not gonna let this defeat me!!!

On another note bladder incontinence sucks. Poise pads are my friend!! I started running again because I signed up for a half marathon June 10th I think it is. My first mile out I peed myself the whole way. So in my mind I was like ok just need to do more kegel exercises and it will get better. So I busted out the kegels everyday for the next 5 days before jumping back on the horse and doing it again. This time I tried a mile again. I got to about a quarter of a mile and bam it happened again. I had placed a panty liner in this time and that thing did not help me one bit. Looked like I had one very sweaty crotch. On my last run I did two miles and didnt start having issues til a half mile. By the time I got back home I had pee half way down my legs. Cues the sadness of wanting my old body back. I walked in the door and started crying to John telling him I was depressed. For those that dont understand running is my zen. It is what keeps me sane and a happy Crissy. Ive counted the day since I got pregnant that I would be able to run again. It truly is my depression medication. So for that to be all jacked up I started freaking out. Worried I was gonna ruin my bladder trying to run and cause bladder prolapse or something goofy like that. After talking to a few moms they told me that this is normal and it will get better. So happy to know that because I seriously think I would be going into a state of depression if this is what I have to look forward to for the rest of my life. But no matter what when I see my handsome little man it was and is all worth it. I will pee my crotch for the rest of my life if it means I get to love on Miles!!!

Feels good to get that all off my chest!! So since you have read all that I have to share some pictures. Miles is 12lbs by our scales at home now. He is growing so fast and today he rolled over during tummy time.



-MissyCrissy :)

Saturday, March 3, 2012

We have a diagnosis...

Hey everyone! We had our ENT appt yesterday and got some good news. Miles does not need surgery. He does not have a the branchial cleft cyst that the peditrician thought he had. He has torticollis due to his traumatic delivery. That is a hematoma that has formed on the muscle of his neck and caused some scar tissue. All he needs is some physical therapy to work out his neck. We are going for an ultrasound to confirm the doctors diagnosis sometime next week. Ive already been googling exercises to help. Tummy time is his friend!!!

On a lighter note he is One month old already!!! How is that possible?!?! I feel like its only been a week since I had him. Before we know it he will be a year old. Here is a few pictures I took of him on his one month birthday!!



-MissyCrissy :)

Monday, February 20, 2012

Update and Life at Home

Hey everyone! Thought I would post an update on our little man! We went to his 2 week appt last thursday and he is now weighing 8lbs 12 oz and has grown a half inch already. His clavicle has completely healed and has grown a callus on it. You can feel the little bump. So we decided it was ok to do his newborn pics and here is a peek that the photographer sent me:



Life at home has been really good except for the other night but I think that was because the doctor had put me on antibotic that did not agree with his body. Oh and by the way breastfeeding is so hard but has gotten so much easier. You dont realize how hard it truly is until you are actually in the moment. I remember when we first tried him on the breast and it was the most awkard thing ever. All I have to say is thank goodness for lactation consultants. They should get paid as much as a doctor if not more. She saved my sanity and nipples!!!

Ive been reading this book called Babywise and Im trying to stick to that schedule instead of demand feeding and it seems to be working really good. We still have so much to learn about this little guy that by the time we have our next we will have this down pat!!! It has been amazing journey learning this process with my husband. Oh and his stump on his belly button fell off so tummy time is a go. He is doing so good with it. For being two and half weeks old he turns his head from one way to the next.

I did find a lump on his neck and we are headed to the doc this afternoon and hoping its nothing bad. Ive tried staying away from Dr. Google but we all know that is almost impossible. So it could be swollen lymph nodes and truly hope its that and not a tumor or something. The last bit of news and I will end this post. I have signed up for a half marathon in June to get this body back in shape. I will start blogging about training with a baby. These milk jugs of mine are gonna need some major support. Ha ha ha....

-MissyCrissy :)

Friday, February 10, 2012

Miles Birth Story (Long)

MILES BIRTH STORY


On 2/1/2012 John and I headed to L&D for a scheduled induction at 39 weeks. We arrived at 9 pm and was put up in a very nice room by 10 pm. I got my first dose of cytotec by 11pm along with tylenol and an ambien to sleep. At this point I was 50% effaced and a finger tip dilated. She started my IV and we went to sleep. She woke me up Im gonna guess around 2-3am and gave me another dose of cytotec. I dont think she checked my cervix at this point but things were foggy. She came in at 4 am and I was having some contractions and she gave me a medication called stradiol. Holy cow that medication kicked me in the tail. I was so dang loopy. But good I guess. She came in the room at 6 am and said ok we are going to L&D now.  Here is a shot of my belly the night we went in the hospital:



Once we got there they did a cervical check and I was already dilated to 3 cm. I was having pretty good contractions and was just breathing thru them. I have no idea how close or how far apart they were because that medicine that the nurse gave me upstairs. My doctor came by to say hello and he would see me later!! The nurse asked if I was gonna do an epidural and I said yes. I told her I would like to wait til Im 5cm and she said she would go ahead and call the person who does it. By the time they got there I was so ready! As I was getting the epidural I felt a gush of fluid and told the nurse I either peed or my water just broke. It was my water!!!! So by 8am things were progressing pretty quickly. By 10 am I was dilated to a 7. By noon I was dilated to a 8-9 and stalled. They started pitocin on me and finally got to a 10 by 230. We started pushing by 2:50. Here are a few pictures of these moments thanks for my hubby taking them.



They had to give me oxygen because Miles heart rate would drop everytime they would do cervical checks to the 80's. I hated that mask. I give people this kind of therapy everyday at work so it was very surreal for me to be wearing it. Man it sure does dry your mouth out. Poor patients. So I pushed for 2 hours and 20 mins. As my doctor said you didnt just push for 2 hours and 2 minutes you pushed hard for the whole time. I was so determined for him to be here a 3:33 pm but I surpassed that and now it was 4:50 and he was almost here. I really didnt want to use the mirror to see down there but I had to say that helped me so much. The doctor had come in at 4:30 and threatened me with a csection. I could see his head and was so deteremined to do this vaginally after I had been pushing for so long. Well my temperature started to go up at the highest point 101. And Miles heart rate started to elevate and showing some distress in the birth canal. The nurse noticed he got a cut on his head from my pelvic bone. Poor little guy. The nurse was suppose to leave at 5 and I didnt want a new nurse. So in the middle of one of my breaks she calls someone to go pick her kid up because she was going to stay. That really touched John and I!!!! After that phone call she called my doc in because Miles was fixing to be here that was at 4:50. I pushed maybe five rounds of three and he arrived at 5:02pm with complications.

John got to cut the cord but as they were about to put him on my belly the nurse noticed he wasnt breathing at all if he was even breathing. They took him to the warmer because they hadnt even heard the first cry. In one minute the room went from 5 people to 25 people in a quick second. Again we are both respiratory therapist and know exactly what is going on. Im across the room freaking out and John is torn between him and I on who he should attend too. Here are a few pic of our little guy under the warmer.



He ended up weighing 8 lbs 1oz and 20 1/2 inches long. Come to find out Miles broke his clavicle coming out under my pelvic bone. Then while they were trying to get him to liven up and get his oxygen level up they caused his lung to collapse. I could see the pulse oximeter that they had put on him and his oxygen level was in the 70's. Its suppose to be in the 90's. They got it up enough to transport him to the NICU but let me kiss him real quick before they took him away from me.


John had to leave me to go to the NICU with him. All I have to say is Im happy I did not take that initial trip up there because I was already a basket case. What is crazy is John and I work at this hospital and people that were working on Miles knew us or work with us. I told them thank you so much for taking care of him and knew if he was a different hospital (smaller) things would be different. Once he got to the NICU they placed him on a cpap machine because his oxygenation status was not good. The had to put a oral gastric tube down his belly to get air out of his belly and all other kinds of stuff that I probably didnt need to see.

My poor husband was a champ. He held up strong thru all this for me and for that Im truly blessed. Miles stayed on cpap for probably 10 hours and was off cpap by the time we saw him the next morning at 4 am. We couldnt sleep so after I pumped we walked the milk up to the NICU. Here he is without all the contrapments on his poor face.

At this visit they asked me if I wanted to hold him since I havent got to hold him yet. My heart melted. This seriously made my night and needed this so bad. I held him so tight and didnt want to let him go.

This has gotten way to long but all in all he spent two days in the NICU and two days in the special care nursery. His broken collar bone is healing every single day and we are pretty much treating him like a newborn without any problems. The collapsed lung resolved on its on without a chest tube. Thank goodness. We have been home for a few days and went to his first pediatrician appointment and he is a perfect baby!!!!! If you made it thru all of this you get a cookie. I will finish this on a good note with a few cute pictures of him:




-MissyCrissy :)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Looks like my Little Boy will be here sooner...

Hey ladies!! Wanted to update you guys real quick. I went to the doctor yesterday to do an ultrasound and my final check up before getting induced next week. Well the ultrasound showed I have a big baby in my belly. He is weighing 8lbs 5 oz and my amniotic fluid was on the lower side but he wasnt to concerned about that. I was only dilated 1 cm and 50% effaced. He was worried if I waited til next week the baby would be 9lbs and more of a risk for csection so we are doing the induction tonight.

 I go in at 10 pm tonight to get the cervadil. I cant believe tomorrow I will be holding this little fella that I have been carrying in my belly for 9 months. I think my dog Aubrey the lab knew things were going on. She has been pacing the house for two days. She is about to drive me bonkers.

I truly hope I can do this without having a csection. I need on the good vibes I can get!! Cant wait to post a picture for you guys to meet him!!! I will get John to take a last picture of me tonight and I will post it here!

-MissyCrissy :)

Monday, January 23, 2012

Weekly Check-In: 36-38 weeks!!!


Weekly Check-In

How far along?



37 weeks 4 days today !!! Holy cow Im having a baby in 17 days. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Here is the recent picture for you:



And for fun a bare belly shot-





Maternity clothes?


Well I have offically moved into all of John's shirts except for a few that I have left that are comfortable. Bring on the pajama pants! I told John last night on our date night that Im done with Jeans til Miles comes.


Sleep?

No matter what Im up every 2 hours even if its just to look at the clock. I tried benadryl for a few days but it didnt help much.

 
Best moment this week?

Is knowing that I only have 4 more 12 hour shifts after today!!! Im beyond excited.


Food cravings:

Nothing in particular at this point. I have already made a request for the meal I want after I deliver Miles. Chickfila of course!!!!

Gender:

Still a sweet baby boy!

 

Belly button in or out?

Oh its almost out. If I go to my due date it will pop out I just know it.

Movement:

Yes and a lot! I know where his foot and hip/butt are at all times!!! Cant wait to kiss on those feet!

 
What I miss?

Still miss running and you better believe Im counting down the day til I can run again. I have 9 weeks left!!!


What I'm looking forward to:

Im looking forward to seeing the moment John holds Miles in his arms and his heart melts. This little boy has no idea how much he is loved already. I look forward to watching both of us grow as parents! Its gonna be a wonderful and challenging ride that Ive looked forward to my whole adult life!!! Im so blessed to have such a wonderful man to start a family with.

Oh and I have to share how I got my toes done for delivery day:


 

Milestones



Im full term baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








-MissyCrissy :)



Thursday, January 5, 2012

Weekly Check-In 35 Weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weekly Check-In

How far along?
35 weeks!!!
Here is the recent picture for you:
Officially waddling!!!



Maternity clothes?

Yeppers

Sleep?
I will take what I can get at this point!!

Best moment this week?
Feeling Miles foot going from one side of my belly to the other!! Having my last shower and being spoiled by my coworkers. Thanks for there generosity I was able to get my breast pump for free and almost all the other little things I needed off my registry. Im so blessed to have people that are excited for us!

Food cravings:
 
Anything at this point. Im just always hungry!!

Gender:

Miles Jackson

Belly button in or out?

It is so close to being even. Never thought I would see the end of my belly button.

Movement:

OMG yes! He is the most active in the evening. He gets the hiccups at least twice a day. Man its so dang awesome to experience this.

What I miss?

Bending at the waist and not getting short of breath so dang easy.  

What I'm looking forward to:

The day my water breaks!

Milestones
Went to the doctor yesterday for my weekly checkup and Ive been having a ton of braxton hicks so he decided to check me. Im not dilated or effaced at this moment. Dont think he will check me again til 37 weeks unless I tell him I feel like there is tons of pressure. He has decided to not do a ultrasound at 37-38 weeks because my belly is measuring right now track now. Im starting to get guesses on how much he will weigh. My guess is 7lbs 12 oz 21 inches long.

-MissyCrissy :)