Day 22: A joke

A woman went to the doctor's office. She was seen by one of the new doctors, but after about four minutes in the examination room, she burst out, screaming as she ran down the hall. An older doctor stopped and asked her what the problem was, and she explained. He had her sit down and relax in another room.




The older doctor marched back to the first and demanded, "What's the matter with you? Mrs. Terry is 63 years old, she has four grown children and seven grandchildren, and you told her she was PREGNANT?"



The new doctor smiled smugly as he continued to write on his clipboard.



"Cured her hiccups though, didn't it?"

*Compliments of a bumpie on The Bump!
 
-MissyCrissy :)

Day 21 — A favorite recipe

This is by far the best Chocolate Chip Cookie Recipe ever!!!! Hope you enjoy! Pictures are compliments of my mother-in-law. She loves Pioneer Woman and we are trying to talk John into doing a cooking blog because he is an amazing cook!! Got this recipe from The Best Recipes Cookbook.

                      ~Thick and Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookies~

2 cups all-purpose flour

1/2 teaspoon baking soda

1/2 teaspoon salt

12 tablespoons (1 1/2 sticks) unsalted butter

melted and cooled until warm

1 cup of light or dark brown sugar, packed

1/2 cup granulated sugar

1 large egg plus 1 egg yolk

2 teaspoons vanilla extract

1-1 1/2 cups semisweet chocolate chips or

18 pieces of dark dove chocolate broken up

1. Adjust oven racks to upper- and lower-middle positions and heat oven to 325 degrees. Line two large cookie sheets with parchment paper. Or use a silpat

2. Whisk flour, baking soda, and salt together in medium bowl; set aside.


3. Either by hand or with electric mixer, mix butter and sugars until thoroughly blended.

Beat in egg, yolk, and vanilla until combined.

 Add dry ingredients and beat at low speed just until combined.

Stir in chips to taste.

(we did dove dark chocolate placed in a ziploc bad and bashed up with a meat tenderizer)

4. Roll scant 1/4 cup dough into ball.

Holding dough ball in fingertips of both hands, pull into two equal haves.

Rotate halves 90 degrees and, with jagged surfaces facing up, join halves together at their base, again forming a single ball, being careful not to smooth dough's uneven surface.

Place formed dough onto cookie sheet, leaving 2 1/2 inches bewtween each ball.

5. Bake reversing position of cookie sheets halfway through baking (from top to bottom and front to back), until cookies are light golden brown and outer edges start to harden yet centers are still soft and puffy, 15-18  mins. (I found 14 mins is the best!!)

Then place on a cooling rack or leave on the parchment paper.

 Hope someone really cooks these cookies because they are A-mazing!!! If you do please comment on them!

-MissyCrissy :)



Day 20 — A hobby of mine

My all time favorite hobby since I was alittle girl is playing softball!! I skipped t-ball and went straight to coach pitch. I played slow pitch softball up to my 8th grade year. Then the summer of my 8th grade year to my Freshman year they started a fast pitch softball team at our high school. So I took a softball camp at Texas A&M I think it was....

Holy crap those softballs came at me way faster than slow pitch so it was a huge adjust me but was able to do it! I made varsity softball all four years in high school which was awesome. But now that Im an adult they dont have fast pitch for my age so Im back to slow pitch.

I play on a womens competitive slow pitch team here in dallas. We travel near and far to play. Our goal every year is to go to world and win! We got 17th out of 199 teams last year. Pretty dang close. Here is a few pics of my days as a softballer:

-MissyCrissy3

Gas Prices...

Ive been stuck in the house for pretty much a week in a half and decided to get out and go watch my softball team play our game. As Im driving home I notice that gas here is 3.17 a gallon. What the hell?? Before my ankles got hurt it was 2.89. The cost of living just keeps going up and up. I really wished they would put a cap on how much a gas station can charge for gas. $5.00 gallon. Just a vent! Thanks for reading...

-MissyCrissy3

Day 19 — A fun memory

My funniest memory was when I was a sophmore in high school. I had just moved from my hometown of Wylie to another city and had to go to another high school. In wylie I was on the varsity softball team so mesquite let me be on there varsity team there. So I had alot of proving to do to stay on this team.

So on a saturday we had a softball tournament in Allen. The day before it rained pretty bad and the fields where very muddy. I hadnt hit at all that day. Finally I hit the ball to the infield I guess and I ran as hard as I could and fell to far away from the base to touch it. I fell flat on my face and my helmet got stuck in the mud and it wouldnt come out. I was doing everything I could to get it out of the mud and try to touch the base at the same time. Then the first baseman just tags me with her glove and ball. Your out!

I finally got up hid my face in the helmet and ran back to the dug out crying. What's even worse is someone had this on video...

-MissyCrissy :)

Love vs Hate about being a Respiratory Therapist

My best friend post buddy MrsJt09 is considering going to respiratory school and wanted me to list my love and hates of my job. So I decided to post it here as well:

I will start with love because there really isnt much hate about it.




Love:

-It makes you feel good that you can help someone

-You save lives

-You are probably smarter than alot of nurses and doctors

-You have the best critical thinking skills in the whole hospital

-It makes you realize how short life is and makes you grow and appreciate life alot more

-I love the team work that you the nurse and doctor do to make a person better

-In a code situation(someone dying on us) you, nurse, and doctor are the most important

-If you are a people person this is the place for you

-Your not stuck with two patients all day and give tons of meds like nurses.

-You and the nurse are the only people in the hospital who give medications

-Working at a hospital for a long time that becomes your second family

-Love only working 3 days a week. Very easy to plan a vacation

-I get to wear scrubs and its like wearing pajamas to work



Hate

-Dealing with different personalities in the workforce which is the same everywhere

-People thinking the only thing I do is check oxygen levels

-Sometimes looked down upon from nurses and doctors

-We dont close for bad weather

-Sometimes limited on what we can do to help a patient

-Death but I think over time this gets easier

-Dealing with the family is by far the hardest part for me. You will cry from time to time its normal


-MissyCrissy :)

Update on Ankles..

Well I called in to work the next three days because there is no way I can walk up to 5 miles each day. I woke up this morning and they were super sore. I think I might have pushed myself to hard yesterday. I was trying to prove to myself that I could go to work and I would be fine. But a sweet coworker and friend really thought I should stay at home and let it heal.

Here is a updated look at my ankles:

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 18 — A baby photo

Ok I found a baby picture of me but not John. So the pic of John is when he was maybe 5-7.

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 17 — A photo of my family



Done with my OB/GYN

Since this a blog and away to vent here I go. Im angry. Very angry. A couple of months ago my doctor lost his awesome nurse because she had an oppurtinity to go be a midwife or work with one. This new nurse he has made him look like a really bad doctor.

Ive been with this doctor since I was 22 years old. We work in the same hospital and I pass him in the halls from time to time. Im angry with him for these reasons: he knew from the get go from my first marriage that I had irregular periods why didnt he investigate the issues then instead of waiting til it could be worse, giving me results on my voicemail and not talk to me on the phone, not call me and let me know what my latest pap results are since the one before was abnormal, not waste a whole month in a half before going to a RE and not do something for me so I wouldnt have to do them there(cd 3 b/w, hsg, SA), and make me feel like he has dropped me like a bad habit after the referral to the RE.

Here is a video for him:


I cant stand his nurse at all she is a 23-25 years old that doesnt know a thing about women issues. She asks me the most insane questions that are obvious. Ex: I told her I just ovulated and she asked me if I have taken a pregnancy test. Hello I just ovulated...... You leave a message on her voicemail and she doesnt call you back for days or not at all. Looks like Im headed to find a new doctor!!!

After this journey Im truly considering going back to school to become a Reproductive Endocrinologist. DH and I were talking about this over breakfast this morning. I would have to do alot of sacrificing the next 10 years but man it would be so worth it. This thought is weighing heavy on my brain... Got lots to think about in the next few months. But no matter what Im still going to work on making our family bigger!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 16 — A favorite food

My absolute favorite food is Natural Peanut Butter!! I love putting peanut butter on a banana! Oh or toast a piece of wheat bread putting peanut butter on it and slicing banana on it. People say Im almost eating a Elvis Sandwhich minus the honey. I seriously can eat two tablespoons of peanut butter for dinner and be good.



John and I really try to eat a clean diet. Not much sugar, fried stuff, butter, and soybean oil. There for awhile we were doing the paleo diet! Was a great diet but very time consuming on preparing food. I have tons of other favorite foods but it will bore you. Before dating John I had a very small eating preference and would not go outside that circle. I have now tried so many things that I did not think I liked!! Guess it pays to have a husband who is a good cook!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 15 — My celebrity crush

I have two celebrity crushes!!! One is Ben Affleck. That man is so hot! Not as hot as my husband but maybe its his smile. Who knows....



The next crush is on Aston Kutcher!!! He might not be the fittest actor out there but in the movie No Strings Attached he was super hot!! If he is anything like the role of that movie he is every girls dream. Think he needs to drop Demi Moore.



-MissyCrissy :)

Day 14 — An old photo

Im posting an old picture of when my Aunt got married to uncle. From left to right: My mother, my nannie, my Aunt Sherry, Uncle Terry, Papaw, and Aunt Diane.

Wasnt sure if this was wanting an old photo of me or not. So I guess I will do one of me too.

Im the one sitting on the left second girl. I look the same... I think I was 10 or 11 then.

-MissyCrissy :)

Dang Ankles...

So last night John wanted me to try this pull up that is different than a real pull up. He has made our garage into a Crossfit Gym. We have attic access in our garage and he has installed a pull up bar. Here is video of the pull up I was trying to do:


The Kipping Pullup - Part One from Patrick Cummings on Vimeo.


He had to give me a boost up to the bar because the celling is tall. When I got done with the pull up I jumped off and landed on a medicine ball with both feet, and feel to the ground. Both my feet went numb and then started thrombing with every heart beat it as weird. Then I almost passed out. John carried me inside and put ice on it. Holy crap that hurt bad. Got some tyelnol in my system and decided to go to the ER after two hours of comptemplating.

So I sprained the left ankle pretty bad and the right ankle could possible be broke in a certain area and have to go see a doctor early next week. Urrrrghhhh this stinks.

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 13 — Something I want to buy

Im dying for a Body Bugg. Ive asked for this for my birthday so we will see what happen. Here is a picture of it:



If you havent ever seen the body bugg here is a description of it. The bodybugg device is a state-of-the-art calorie management system designed around a simple principle. Burn more calories than you take in, and you will lose weight. The real trick is keeping track.

-MissyCrissy :)

First Acupuncture Appt......

Oh my I cant even begin to explain how nervous I was. So I muster up the courage to go in. First off when I called the lady I could hardly understand here. I think that is what scared me the most. Then feeling a bunch of needles sticking in me. I told her why I was there and she took be back to her room.

She made me sit down and felt my pulse on both wrist. She said oh you have a kidney deficiency. She told me she wanted me to start taking my temperature in the morning when I wake up I told her I did. Thanks to Fertility Friend and my Evo I showed her my charts. She said from my chart she can tell why I have hot flashes and how the kidneys are affecting me from getting pregnant. I told her that I do get sharp pains after drinking a soda when I take a deep breath in so this was interesting to me. I didnt tell her about those pains til after she told me that. She wanted me to go in depth alittle bit on my stress and what it is that upsets me. I could go on for days about this. She looked at my tongue. All that looked good.

Then she gave me a gown and told me to keep my panties on and remove everything else. She came back in and made me lay on my stomach. She began feeling my back to see where I carry my stress. She noticied I carry it in my middle back and around my shoulder blades. She said I have alot of stress there that she could not rub out. So she left and came back and did some suction cup thing on me that almost made me cry. Its called cupping. This is why it almost made me cry:

Sorry if this too much picture for you. But I had to show it plus I didnt realize I was that red til John took the picture and showed me. But after that was done she began putting the needles in my back, neck, and lower back. They really didnt hurt at all maybe a sting here and there. Then she left me alone with a breathing cd to listen too. Pretty much telling me to inhale for 4 seconds and exhale for 4 seconds.

After about 30 mins she came back and took out those needles. She made me turn over and put needles on my face, arms, ovary area, feet, and legs. The legs hurt not sure why but they did. She picked up my legs and started moving them back and forth. Man this stuff is crazy. She made me hold something in my hand she said was enzymes. She left me again for 25 mins to the breathing CD. Made me to some resistant test.

She told me I hold alot of emotion in and I had alot of stress. She told me no raw veggies for a while and I need to drink this herbal tea. So I took home tea. Havent tried it but we will see. I do feel less stressed. I feel very calm... I go again Tuesday!

Day 12 — Something I bought recently

Im in love with Big Star Liv Jeans! If these jeans werent $150 piece I would have 10 pair! My best friend and I went shopping a few weeks ago and I bought me a new pair. My last pair the button keeps coming off.

Short lived bump break!!!

The support on the bump is like no other... I just cant stay away!!! I have so much fun talking with the girls and being there for them! So my bump break is over but I have promised myself to not spend every single extra minute I have on there. I wont post much in the waiting to o and 2ww to keep my sanity! My whole goal in the bump break was to destress. So I know I can destress without posting there.

Oh and Im calling a accupuncturist today to make a appt!! Im sure nervous. My insurance will pay for 4 sessions in a calendar year! Lets see if this works!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Day 11 — A photo of me taken recently

Not the best picture. But I took it myself with my phone...

Day 10 — A photo of me taken over ten years ago

Oh man this is going to be interesting....

A picture of me in the 8th grade.. Pre highlights!!!!

-MissyCrissy :)

Frustrated with OB/GYN

Just a vent here... So today im cd3 and was hoping that my ob/gyn would go ahead and redo my bloodwork since he drew it on cd29 the last go around. After talking to others that bloodwork could be wrong.

So I called there office Friday and his nurse told me she would talk to him first thing Monday morning and she would call me. So I called this morning to make sure it was there and of course it wasnt so I asked for the nurse. The secretary tells me my doctor and his nurse are out today. Oh man was I pissed. Im really considering changing ob/gyns. Im so tired of his nurse I could scream.

So they put me thru to another nurse for a different doctor in that office. She tried to tell me that they normally draw it on cd3 but I told her he didnt. She said she would look at my chart and talk to the other doctor about seeing if they could do it for me. She calls me back to tell me there is nothing in my chart that my doctor said so they have to wait til he is back. Of course thats late tomorrow afternoon or Wednesday. By that time it will be too late.

The only reason why I was pushing them to do it and not the RE is because the RE said they cant do until they have had the first visit with me. They said if your ob/gyn wants to do it thats good. But my cycles are anywhere from 45-55 days so my next period wont be til April. Urrrrrggghhhhh. This is so frustrating. Felt good to get this off my chest.

-MissyCrissy :)

Oh my I just emailed The Bump

So I was just kik another bumpie and we were talking about wishing the bump would have a convention so we could all meet. Welll I got a wild hair and just emailed there public relation person. So I guess we will see what happens!!!!

Valentine's Day Cupcakes!!!!

So with my bump break I have taken on baking. So I told John that I would make Red Velvet Cupcakes from Scratch. OMG they were so good!!!

Here are two pics of them:

If your interested and want the recipe I can email it too you!!! Baking is so fun!!

Day 8: Something I Crave

For starters since this is a vague topic Im going to list a activity I crave and a food!

First I crave to run... I know this is crazy but running keeps me sane. I use running as my therapy. When its just me and nature running outside nothing can replace it. Im able to think about things that happen that day or week. I was going thru a difficult time in my life a few years ago and wasnt working out at all. I felt depressed and needed something. So I bought some runnng shoes and I would drive around my city and figure out how far certain places I would run too. Before you know it I was up to running 13 to 15 miles in one day. Started dating John who was a Triathele and he told me you need to do a Half Marathon!! So I did and now Im hooked!!! Ive done 2 Half Maratons and 2 Full Marathons!! Working on a 10 mile Trail Run in March.

Second I crave Dove Dark Chocolate. If you have not had Dove Chocolates man are you missing out. There dark chocolate is better than any dark chocolate I have tasted. Its our dessert after dinner! A few weeks ago John talked me into making homeade Chocolate Chip Cookies with Dove Dark Chocolates as the chips. OMG they were the best cookies I have ever eaten. When you put chocolate chip cookies which I love plus dove dark chocolate equals heaven. Might have to write Dove and tell them to make chips because I had to unwrap the candies individually place in a bag and hit with a mallet to get them to break up!

A poem I wanted to Share

One of the ladies on the bump had unknown infertility issues and posted this poem on her blog. So I wanted to post it here. It truly is a great poem and thank the bumpie who posted this on the board.

I WILL BE

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.

I will notice everything about my child.

I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.

I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that I have been given me this insight,

this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that I am led to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.

I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

-Author Unknown, taken from TTGP

Day 7: Favorite Picture

Well as you can tell from all the other post picking one thing is out of the question. So I will be posting a few!!

Here is a picture of John and I during our engagment pictures:

Next has to be the day we got married.

Last but not least a funny pic at christmas this year:

Day 6: Fun Fact About Me

There are many goofy and fun facts about me but there is one that came out when I was planning our wedding. Im a pretty crafty lady!! I was a huge DIY bride. I decorated every mason jar on our tables at our wedding, made our invitations, the list goes on. But my new found craft is I love making letters for my friends baby rooms!!

It's so fun to get pictures of someones baby room and buy things to make the letters feel like its apart of the room. So here are a few pictures of the ones Ive done so far....

Day 5: Favorite Quote

Work as if you don't need the money. Love as if you have never been hurt. Dance as if no one is watching!

That is my all time favorite quote. I have to say this was one of the hardest days to pick something because I truly live by quotes. They inspire me so much. There is a girl on the bump that post a "QOTD" and I so look forward to reading them. When I was going thru some hard times in my life I would look at certain quotes to get me thru the day. This one in particular.

I work because I love my job and treat my patients as Im there for them and it has nothing to do with money. I honestly love my husband more than anything in this world. I love him just like the quote says every single day. I have been hurt by men in my life but I refuse to let that stop me from loving this man they way he deserves to be loved. I can honestly say I dance all the time when no one is watching!!!! I will put on Get Low from Flo Rida and dance like Im in a video or something. Great workout by the way!

Bump Break

John and I have been trying for almost 7 months and Ive been using the support of a wonderful group of ladies on thebump.com. Today I decided its time for a break from that group. Im truly going to miss those girls alot. I have made some really good friendships there.

I think right now where I stand in this whole baby making process is Im kind of lost. After my doctor telling me horrible stuff about my bloodwork and this cycle not panning out I need to take a step back. Knowing me I probably wont be able to stay away from the bump because the support on there might be what I need. But I have consumed my life with trying to get pregnant.

So today Im taking a huge step back and Im going to act like I still have my mirena and act like we arent trying to get pregnant. Once I can get information from my new RE about whats going on I will get back into the game.

I wish all those lovely ladies on the bump BFP!!

Day 4: Favorite Book

Well Im not a huge reader at all. Im more of a magazine kind of girl. So Im going to pick my favorite magazines.

Womens Health Magazine is my absolute favorite. It has alot of good information. The workouts, tips, and motivation that magazine provides is exactly what Im looking forward to in a magazine.

Cooking Light is another favorite. They have some really really good recipes. There articles at times I feel like I was suppose to pick up that magazine and read it. I use to be one of the worst eaters ever and this magazine helps make it easier to eat the way Ive always wanted!!

Day 3: Favorite TV Show

Oh man I have so many this one is going to be hard. So Im going to list a few!!

One is Price is Right if you call that a show. Everyday Im off I have to watch that show. If I dont my day just doesnt go right! Side note: DH and I are going to Burbank, CA in March and got tickets!!! We are stoked and cant wait!

Greys Anatomy/Private Practice have to be right up there with Price is Right. Except I can miss an episode and not get upset. Working the medical field its always fun to see the goofy stuff they do on tv that is not right... But for the most part it is.

Last but not least I love Hells Kitchen/Kitchen Nightmares/Master Chef. Gotta love cooking shows. Im not a huge cook but John is and Im always asking him to go on one of these shows. Except Kitchen Nightmares of course. Because of these shows I have started to bake. Oh boy that is fun!!!

Day 2: Favorite Movie

My all time favorite movie is Grease. I know every song word for word. I can even say most of the lines.

Day 1: Favorite Song

I have two songs. I look for songs that motivate me or make me feel good. So thank you Miley Cyrus and Helen Reddy!!

Blood Results from my OB/GYN

This past Monday I got bad news about my blood work that my doctor drew. He was concerned when I told him Ive only had 3 period in 6 months. Since Ive been with him since I was 22 he knows me well. When you are not trying to conceive its not that big of deal. But it is huge right now.

So he called and I missed his phone call and he left the results of my bloodwork on my voicemail. OMG was my initial thought it scared me and all I wanted to do was talk to him. So I called the office and he couldnt talk to me. His nurse gave me the number to a Reproductive Endocrinologist so I called them. The nurse told me she would tell him to call me back. The RE told me she wanted the bloodwork he did. So I walked over to there office as I was picking up the papers and walking back to my dept. I saw the doctor. He wasnt even going to call me. So I pulled him over.

He told me there is a possibility that Im going into early menopause, thyroid problem, or something to do with my pituitary. He said he couldnt fix me and needed to go see the doctor he told me to go see. Appt is set for March 8th and Im on the cancel list in case someone cancels.

Will update once I know more....

Changed the name of our Blog

We changed the name of our blog so we could begin to have followers. Having our names on there wasnt too safe anyway. So the meaning of serendipity for us means alot. When we were dating we were in florida during a softball tournament of mine and we were running. We came up to a road called Serendipity and didnt know what it meant. Neither did he. So when we got back from running we looked it up and felt it fit our relationship and how fortunate we were.

Two weeks after that he proposed to me. The 3's in the name change is very important to us as well. I could go on for days on why the number 3 has such meaning to our relationship. For example: We started dating in the Month of march, third week of march, he was 33, I was 27(3 cubed), together we have 3 dogs, and my address number is 111. Need I say more... Dont think so.

Starting tommorrow Im starting a 30 day blog challenge. Here is the challenge:

Day 01 — A favorite song

Day 02 — A favorite movie

Day 03 — A favorite TV show

Day 04 — A favorite book

Day 05 — A favorite quote

Day 06 — A fun fact about me

Day 07 — A favorite photo

Day 08 — Something I crave

Day 09 — Pet peeves

Day 10 — A photo of me taken over ten years ago

Day 11 — A photo of me taken recently

Day 12 — Something I bought recently

Day 13 — Something I want to buy

Day 14 — An old photo

Day 15 — My celebrity crush

Day 16 — A favorite food

Day 17 — A photo of my family

Day 18 — A baby photo

Day 19 — A fun memory

Day 20 — A hobby of mine

Day 21 — A favorite recipe

Day 22 — A favorite joke

Day 23 — A video

Day 24 — A travel story

Day 25 — A favorite photo

Day 26 — A funny (true) story

Day 27 — A child I love

Day 28 — A place I love

Day 29 — A person I love

Day 30 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Being sick sucks..

Well I called into work today. A cold has me down and out... Im carrying around an awesome box of Kleenex with lotion. Those kleenex are the best thing they have ever invented. Yesterday at work I went thru a box and half at work and they didnt have lotion. By the time I left work my nose was so red and raw. Since the weather is so bad John drove me to work and picked me up from work and stopped at CVS and got me the kleenex. What a wonderful husband I have!!!!